Growing Up is Harder Than It Looks -- (Author) leakykate35

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Author: leakykate35
Timestamp: May 8, 2014 at 9:15 AM
Content: Hey everyone I have had this story in my head for a long time. This first chapter is a little slow, but I hope you will enjoy it and keep reading as there is much more to come. As always I highly encourage feedback! Thank you so much and hopefully you enjoy!

Chapter 1
“Thank you Mrs. Jacobson!” Emily Stewart shouted as she entered the house. Emily could smell the aroma of garlic bread cooking in the oven as she walked down the hall toward the kitchen.

“Hey sweetie” her mom said while stirring the pasta sauce as Emily entered into the kitchen. “How was practice?”

“It was fine, but Makayla’s mom was late picking us up again, so we had to sit in the dark, freezing park alone for 15 minutes, I know you said you wanted to wait until I’ve had my license for longer before I start driving other people, but please could you just make an exception and let me drive Makayla and myself to practice. It would be way easier on you and Mrs. Jacobson” Emily pleaded with her mother knowing more than likely this conversation was not going to end in her favor. Emily was a newly licensed junior in high school seeking the independence she felt she deserved and being allowed to drive other people would be a huge step forward for her. Despite being slightly babied by her mom, more than likely due to the fact she was the only child to a single mom, Emily saw herself as an adult and wished other people would do the same.

“Emily” her mom said letting out a long sigh, “I really just want you to wait a little longer before you start driving other people. You’ve only had your license for a month now. I would feel more comfortable if you had a little more experience on the road before you starting driving other people.”

“How am I supposed to get more experience driving if you’re always the one driving me?” Emily replied, slightly annoyed her mom didn’t trust her enough behind the wheel.

“I know it is frustrating, but please Emily be patient with me. It is not that I don’t trust you, or Makayla, I do trust you guys. I just know you two can be a little silly together, and I am afraid you could get distracted. Once you have a little more experience driving on your own, I will let you start driving Makayla. I love you and Makayla more than anything, you’re all I have in this world, and Makayla is basically my second daughter with all the time she spends over here, I just can’t imagine what it would be like if anything happened to you guys” her mom said, going over and putting her hand on her daughter’s shoulder.

Initially, Emily was a little upset by the way her mom described her and Makayla as “silly”, it just sounded so childish. But after everything else her mom said, she couldn’t help but drop it. She knew her mom was just looking out for her, and like her mom said, after her deadbeat dad walked out on them, they were basically all each other had.

“Okay I understand mom” Emily said “anything I can do to help you with dinner?”

“No I think I got it covered” her mom replied. “It is going to be another 15 or so minutes until its ready though, so why don’t you go shower real quick, you stink” her mom said laughing.

With that, Emily dropped her soccer bag off in the garage and then headed upstairs to the bathroom. Before hoping in the shower, she stopped by the mirror to examine the big scrap she got under her arm at practice. One of the girls on her team accidently tripped her during a drill and Emily landed straight on her arm. Emily looked at the oozing wound for a second, until she was too grossed out to look anymore. Emily continued to stand there and looked at herself for a moment. Despite being covered in dirt and sweat, Emily was an extremely attractive girl. She had a cute face with blue-green eyes and long bleach blond hair that was currently up in a ponytail for practice. However, while Emily stared into the mirror, she didn’t see the things that made her beautiful, she could only noticed what she thought was her biggest “fault”. While Emily was an extremely cute girl, a lot of that cuteness came from the fact that she looked more like a twelve year old than a sixteen year old. She had big chubby cheeks that gave her a baby face and even her body seemed to forget she was sixteen as she wasn’t as developed as some of her friends making her feel even younger. Her looks were a major part in why she tried so hard to be seen as an adult as she was tired of people always thinking she was younger. After a few seconds Emily stopped turned around and got in the shower. After completely scrubbing herself down, she got out of the shower, but on her PJs and headed down stairs just as her mom started to call up that dinner was ready.
Pasta and garlic bread was Emily’s favorite meal, partly because her mom was a pretty bad cook overall but not even her mom could mess up pasta and garlic bread. They both served themselves and sat down at the table and began chatting about their days.

“Did you see Josh today?” Her mom asked.

“Umm ya I talked to him for a little bit today” Emily said, blushing a bit. Emily secretly had a huge crush on Josh, who moved in next door to them this year and was a year older than Emily. Josh moved in a month before school started and didn’t know anyone so he and Emily hung out a lot over the last month of summer, but as he began school and started making friends in his grade she didn’t see him as much anymore. Though they still texted almost every day, Emily missed hanging out every day with him.

“You reminded him we’re leaving tomorrow right?” Her mom continued.

“Yep, he remembers” Emily replied.

“Okay great” said her mom

Josh was going to bring in the mail, check on the cats, and feed Emily’s fish, while Emily and her mom went and stayed at her mom’s sister’s house for Christmas and New Year’s. Usually Makayla did this for them, but her family was going away as well, so a few weeks ago when Josh was over at their house, Emily’s mom asked if he would do it. Emily’s mom and her sister, Karen, are twins and were best friends growing. Aunt Karen was also divorced and had two daughters, Sarah and Susie who were 18 and 17, so the five of them got together almost every holiday. Having basically grown up together, Emily was extremely close to Sarah and Susie, and though they were only two and one year older than her, she sort of looked up to them. Besides Makayla, they were probably her best friends, so as much as her mom liked getting together with her sister Karen, Emily was just as excited to see Sarah and Susie. The only downfall was it was about a 9 hour drive from their house in San Diego to Aunt Karen’s house in San Francisco which meant leaving early in the morning.

“What time are we leaving tomorrow?” Emily asked as they were finishing up dinner.

“I want to leave by 6 am” her mom said. “Don’t look so upset” her mom said after seeing Emily’s face when she said 6 am “you’re going to sleep, I’m the one who has to drive that early. We are going to be there for almost two weeks, so make sure you pack everything you need, but remember I will do laundry while we are there so you don’t need to bring everything you own.”

“Thanks mom, I think I got it” Emily said as she already had a list in her head of everything she was going to bring.

“And don’t forget to pack a bag for the car” her mom said as she started doing the dished.

“Thanks” Emily said as she got up and started helping her mom.

Soon the two girls finished the dishes and her mom headed up to bed so she would be well rested for the drive tomorrow, while Emily headed upstairs to begin packing for their trip.

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Author: leakykate35
Timestamp: May 10, 2014 at 3:58 AM
Content: Chapter 2

Emily entered her room and headed over to her closet to get out her suitcase. As she pulled it out she began to go through the list of everything she needed: shirts, pants, underwear, bras, socks, PJs, her toothbrush, toothpaste, makeup, brush, and last but probably most important, her Goodnites. She went over to her dresser and opened up the bottom drawer and pulled out her Goodnites which to her displeasure only had a few left. She pulled out three of them, put one on her bed for tonight, one on her desk for tomorrow morning so she could sleep in the car, and then one in her backpack just in case for the car ride tomorrow. She then put the rest in her bag under some of the clothes she had just put into her suitcase. While Sarah and Susie both new she had accidents at night, every time she was with them, she still tried her best to hide it. Despite being so close in age to them, it was always clear that she was younger, and she didn’t want her bedwetting to make it any more obvious.

Emily went through her list of things she needed to bring one more time in her head and once she was satisfied that everything was in there, closed up her suitcase and decided it was time to go to sleep. Though it was only 10:30, she was hoping to get to drive some of the way tomorrow so she wanted to be well rested. Plus if she slept in the car she knew she would wet and she prefer if she didn’t have to wake up to a wet Goodnite in the car where she couldn’t change right away. She sort of liked the feel of a dry Goodnite, they were much softer than her normal underwear, but she hated the feel of a wet Goodnite. So Emily walked over to her bed, grabbed the Goodnite she had laid out, put it on, and then slide back up her pajama pants and got into bed. It took her a while to fall asleep as her body wasn’t used to going to bed so early but soon Emily drifted into a deep sleep, dreaming about everything she was going to do over the next week with her cousins.

All too soon, Emily’s sleep was rudely interrupted by the sound of her alarm clock. Emily, barely able to open her eyes shut of her alarm and groggily got out of bed. It was 5:50 and her mom wanted to leave in 10 minutes. Emily stood up, slide down her pajama pants, pushed down her very full Goodnite, and grabbed the fresh one she had placed on her desk last night and put it on. She then grabbed her suitcase, pillow, and blanket and headed toward the car. She placed her bag in the trunk, and then snuggled up in the passenger seat and drifted back to sleep just as her mom began to pull the car out of the driveway and their road trip had begun.

A few hours later, Emily began to drift out of her sleep. She did a quick stretch in which the movement made her very aware of the extra weight between her legs. Emily looked at her phone and saw it was already almost ten, but more importantly she had a message from Josh that said “Thought you might need someone to entertain you on your long trip” Emily couldn’t help but smile when she read the message. She quickly responded that some company would be very nice! As they began to text, Emily’s mom noticed Emily had awaken, and was squirming a bit which her mom knew meant Emily had had an accident and couldn’t get comfortable.

“Why don’t we stop for some breakfast? Emily’s mom said. “Are you hungry?”

“Sure that would be great!” Emily said eager to stop so she could change, and as she continued to wake up more she did realize she was quite hungry too.

A few exits up, Emily’s mom saw an IHOP from the freeway and decided that would be the perfect place to stop. As they parked the car and got out Emily realized she had forgotten her backpack in her room with the extra Goodnite in it. It wasn’t a big deal since Emily could just grab a Goodnite from her suitcase, but Emily liked having the backpack because they she didn’t have to walk through the restaurant to the bathroom trying to hide her pull-up from everyone. Emily walked over to the trunk, opened it up, grabbed out the second to last Goodnite from her pack, and grabbed a pair of shorts. She hid the Goodnite inside the shorts and they both headed toward the restaurant.

“Hey mom” Emily said sort of shyly as they were walking, “I only have one Goodnite left, would it be possible for us to stop before we get to Aunt Karen’s house and get a new pack, I really don’t want to have to go buy some when we’re with them.”

“Of course honey, that is not a problem” her mom replied. She knew bedwetting was not an easy thing to deal with, especially for someone trying to assert themselves as an adult, but she was always proud of how her daughter handled it. “There is a Wallmart right across the street, we can stop as soon as we are done eating.”

“Thanks mom!” Emily said as they entered the IHOP and she headed straight for the bathroom while her mom got the table. Inside the bathroom, Emily headed straight for the stall. To her disappointment there was someone in the other stall right next her. Emily dreaded changing when there was someone else in the bathroom as she thought the other person would clearly hear the sound of her diaper and think she was weird. Emily stood in the stall for a minute until the person left and then quickly changed before someone else came in. However, just as Emily was leaving the stall with her used Goodnite in hand, two girls about her age walked in. For a moment Emily froze and blushed just standing there staring at the two girls. However, the two girls paid no attention to Emily as they were in deep conversation about some boy from their school and never even noticed what Emily was holding. Realizing they didn’t notice her, Emily walked to the trashcan as fast as she could, threw away the Goodnite, washed her hands and left the bathroom. When Emily got back to the table she was still slightly red and her mom could tell something was up and asked her what happened. When Emily told her mom the story they both started to laugh. It is amazing how you can think something is so obvious and everyone notices what you are doing and are judging you. While in reality most people are too preoccupied with their own lives to even notice, and few care even if they do notice.

After they each wolfed down a bunch of pancakes, they paid the bill, went to the bathroom, and got back into the car. However, before they could continue on their journey, they first had to stop across the street at Wallmart. As they walked into Wallmart, they headed over to the baby section. Emily absolutely hated the fact that the Goodnites were in the baby section. I mean it is perfectly logical to put them there, but it always hurt her psyche a bit to walk past strollers, and cribs, to get to her Goodnites as if the store was sending her a message that she was still a baby. Eventually they made it down the long diaper isle to end where the training pants and bedwetting supplies were. Emily quickly scanned the row of training pants until she honed in on the all too familiar Girls L/XL Goodnites. Emily grabbed the pack and started speed walking toward the register to avoid having to been in public holding the Goodnites any longer than she had to. Unfortunately for Emily, it was December 23rd and Wallmart was filled with last minute shoppers trying to get that last gift which not only meant there were more people around for her to try to avoid seeing what she was holding, but also, the lines at each register were huge. Emily entered what seemed to be the shortest line, yet there was still 8 or 9 people in front of her. Checking out was Emily’s least favorite part of having to buy Goodnites. Not only was she forced to stand there holding the Goodnites while everyone in line could see, but she always felt like the cashier judged her a little bit when they rang it up. Eventually the torture of waiting there was over, as they reached the front of the line and her mom paid and they left.

Emily’s mom knew how embarrassed Emily got when she was there when they had to get Goodnites, and usually she tried to buy them without her there to allow her daughter to avoid some embarrassment. “Do you want to drive?” Emily’s mom asked trying to help her daughter not feel like such a little girl.

“Sure!” Emily enthusiastically shouted as she grabbed the keys from her mom and headed.

As they got in the car Emily’s mom began instructing her daughter, “Just drive slowly we are in no rush, be very careful when changing lanes, and make sure to plan ahead if you want to stop driving. We’re about to enter a stretch of highway where the exits are about thirty miles apart, so if you start to feel tired or don’t want to drive anymore, make sure to get off as soon as you feel like it, otherwise you might be stuck driving for another thirty minutes.”

“Got it mom! I’ll be fine!” Emily said excited to get the chance to drive. However, the excitement of driving wore off quickly as the boredom of driving straight on the freeway set in. Driving always made Emily so tired, ever since she was a baby Emily has pretty much always fallen asleep in the car wherever she went somewhere and after about only thirty minutes of driving Emily could feel her eyes starting to get heavy. However, wanting to prove to her mom that she was a good driver, she didn’t want to stop. About five minutes later, Emily saw a sign for an exit in ¾ of a mile that said last stop for 48 miles. Emily initially hesitated, but decided to keep going as the thought of being able to drive her and Makayla to practice set in. She felt like if she did a good job driving now, her mom would have full confidence in her driving and let her drive anywhere. With each passing mile Emily could feel her eyelids getting heavier and heavier until she could barely keep them open any longer. Her mom began to notice this and when they finally reached the next exit, they both agreed it was time for her mom to take over driving.

As Emily got into the passenger seat she noticed it was already almost one, meaning not counting their hour half stop at breakfast and Wallmart, they had been driving for almost five and half hours. Only a few more hours to go Emily thought as she drifted off into sleep almost as soon as she sat down in the passenger seat. The deceleration of the car woke Emily up a few hours later and she looked out the window to see they were getting off the freeway. As she sat up in her seat she noticed that like always, she had wet while she was sleeping.

“Hey mom” Emily said in that embarrassed voice she always used whenever she had to talk about anything related to her bedwetting. “Do you mind if we stop somewhere real quick. I know we are only like five minute from Aunt Karen’s house, but I would prefer not to arrive, umm, wet.”

“Sure honey” her mom said understandingly. “I actually need to stop and get something real quick so we can stop at the gas station up there.”

Though her mom didn’t say what she needed to get, Emily already knew what she was getting, a pack of cigarettes. Emily’s mom and her sister starting smoking together when they were 16 and smoked for years together. However, when Emily’s mom got pregnant with Emily, she quit. Yet whenever she got together with her sister, she would still have a cigarette or two. Emily was glad her mom quit smoking. Though it was clear her mom really enjoyed smoking, you could see it on her face when she smoked with her sister, Emily thought smoking was really gross. Her aunt smoked about a pack and half a day and always reeked of smoke. It seemed like every time you looked over, her aunt was having a cigarette. She always appreciated that her mom gave up something she enjoyed for her, so she didn’t mind that her mom would smoke a little with her sister. It was something they had done together for almost thirty-five years, a special bond between them that Emily would never really fully understand.

As they pulled into the gas station, Emily walked around to the trunk of the car and grabbed a pair of underwear out of her suitcase and then followed her mom inside.

“Hello” Emily’s mom said cheerfully to the cashier as they walked in and she approached the counter. “Could I please have a pack a Marlboro menthol lights and a lighter, and could she please have the key to the bathroom?”

“Of course” the cashier said, first handing Emily the key, and then turning around to get her mom the cigarettes and lighter.

Emily entered the gross gas station bathroom, and slide down her shorts, trying to let them touch the filthy ground as little as possible. She then tore away the sides of her Goodnite, put the soaked thing in the trashcan next her, and wet a paper towel to clean herself up a little bit down there. She realized she had been sitting in a pee filled diaper basically since she went to bed last night, with a few dry hours in between and felt almost as gross as the bathroom. When she decided she had wiped as much of the urine away as possible she grabbed another paper towel and dried herself. Emily hoped she would be able to shower when she gets to her aunt’s house, but for now that will have to do. Then she grabbed her underwear out of the pocket of her shorts put them on, and then put on her shorts. As she left the bathroom, returned the key, and headed out to the car she discovered her mom standing by the car already smoking one of the cigarettes form her new pack. Emily stood there a little shocked, of course she knew her mom was going to smoke the cigarettes, that is why she bought them, but she had never seen her mom smoke without her sister there. Soon her mom finished the cigarette, and they got in the car and headed down the street to her sister’s house.

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Author: leakykate35
Timestamp: Jun 12, 2014 at 7:16 AM
Content: I apologize that it was been about a month without an update, it has been a busy time! Also, if you didn't notice from the first two chapters, diapers are not the central and only focus of this story, and fact, much of the bedwetting plays a part more in the emotional aspect of Emily wanting to grow up and be seen as an adult despite being a bedwetter and less mature physically than many girls her age. Anyways I hope you like this next chapter. Please fell free to give any feedback you have, I really appreciate it!

Chapter 3

As they pulled into the driveway, Emily saw her aunt sitting out on the porch, of course enjoying a cigarette. As her aunt saw them pull up, she quickly put of her cigarette and yelled up to her daughters that Emily was here. The three girls came running down the driveway to meet them as they got out of the car. Aunt Karen went right over to the driver’s side door and gave her sister a huge hug while Sarah and Susie both hugged Emily. Then the girls switched as Aunt Karen came over and gave Emily a big hug while the two girls went over to say hello to Emily’s mom. Emily couldn’t help but hold her breath as her aunt hugged her as the strong, disgusting smell of smoke covered her aunt’s body. The girls all helped unload the car and drop off inside the house.
After the car was completely unloaded Aunt Karen said “you guys must be starving after driving all day! Why don’t Sheryl and I go get some pizzas and we can have some dinner.”

With the mention of food, Emily suddenly realized how hungry she was. She looked at the clock and saw it was just after 5. No wonder she was so hungry, they had been driving for a little over nine hours and had only stopped for a late breakfast.

Emily’s mom and her sister got in her into Aunt Karen’s car and quickly left to go get the pizzas leaving the three girls standing there in the living room. They began to catch up on what had happened since the last time they had been together, or at least since a week ago when they were all texting each other.

“So” Sarah started, “tell us about Josh! Any new news?”

“Not really,” Emily said disappointedly. “I’m pretty sure he thinks of me as a little sister. He’s less than a year older than me but I’m pretty sure he thinks I’m like 12, just like the rest of the world. I’m almost positive he has never even considered the thought of me as an actual girl, like a dateable girl. To him I’m just the little girl next door that he’s friends with. He did text me during the car ride to keep me company which was sweet, but once again I think he does it as more of an older brother type way. Plus we didn’t get to talk for that long. He was busy and I was sleeping most of the way up.”

“I’m telling you Emily,” Susie said, “I saw the way he looks at you and the way he acts around you last time I was at your house, he definitely does not think of you as a little sister. You just need to be more obvious that you like him, he’s probably scared since you guys are so close, he doesn’t want to make a move and lose you.”

“So I should be the one to make a move and then have to be awkward when he rejects me?” Emily said. “No way! If he likes me, he can make a move.”

“You’re such a pessimist Emily! You have to have more faith!” Sarah said.

“Oh shush you too.” Emily said. “What about you guys? How many boys are drooling over you this week? 10 each?” Emily said laughing.

Sarah and Susie had both had their fair share of boyfriends and seemed to always have a new boy interested in them, which made Emily feel way younger than her cousins since she had never even been kissed. Though she didn’t think Josh liked her, she did like the fact that Sarah and Susie did, it made her feel more equal to her cousins, which of course was her ultimate goal. In fact Emily had spoken with a little irony earlier when she talked about Josh only seeing her as his little sister, trying to imply to her cousins that they too viewed her as their baby cousin, at least in her eyes, though she was only a year younger than Susie, and two years younger than Sarah.

“We’re both living the single life and loving it!” Sarah said laughing.

“Let’s bring your bag up to my room and you can get settled in quickly until they get back” Sarah said grabbing Emily’s bag and beginning to walk up the stairs. Both Susie and Sarah had double beds so whenever Emily came Sarah slept in Susie’s room with her and Emily stayed in Sarah’s room. Though in reality, they hardly ever actually slept like that, instead they would sleep in sleeping bags downstairs together since they were usually up talking or watching a movie until late anyways.

Just as the girls got to Sarah’s room they heard the car drive up the driveway, so they dropped the suitcase off and headed downstairs. Just down the road, in the same plaza as the gas station Emily and her mom had stopped at early, there was a hot and ready pizza place so it only took a few minutes for the moms to get the pizza. Just like Emily’s mom, Aunt Karen hardly cooked so most meals while the two families were together involved them going out and picking up food. The five girls sat down at the table and began eating the pizza. Though they were all pretty hungry and thus ate fairly fast, they remained at the table for almost two hours talking.

As the conversation died down Sarah said to Emily, “Susie and I were thinking we could go to Blockbuster tonight and pick out a few movies, sound good?”

“Of course!” Emily said. Emily had already assumed they would be heading to Blockbuster tonight since they watched a movie most nights. Recently they had started sort of a tradition of watching a different scary movie every night, which was another reason the three girls typically slept together downstairs since they was typically pretty freaked out. None of the girls handled scary movies too well yet they still liked to pretend they were brave enough to watch them.

So the girls got up from the table and after putting their dishes in the dishwasher headed upstairs to grab their jackets. The sun had gone down now and it was quite a chilly December evening. Susie and Emily quickly grabbed their jackets and waited downstairs for Sarah who was taking a while.

Eventually Sarah called to Susie from the top of the steps, “Susie, where did you put the pads?”

“Oh crap!” Susie said. “I used the last one last week, I forgot to tell mom to get more.”

“Ughhh Susie!” Sarah cried. She then turned to Emily, “you don’t happen to have any do you?”

“Oh no sorry,” Emily said quickly, “Just finished earlier this week so I didn’t bring any.” This was a lie as Emily was a very late bloomer which was good and bad and thus still in the midst of puberty. It was good because her doctor kept Emily’s hopes up about her bedwetting by saying many teenage girls who wet the bed tend to stop after puberty, but was bad in the fact it made her feel even more like a baby. There was no way she was going to tell her cousins, who she knew had gone through puberty very early, that she hadn’t brought any feminine supplies because she still quite irregular, thus it never even crossed her mind to bring some.

“Okay, we can stop and get some while we are out” Sarah said coming down the stairs.

Sarah walked into the kitchen and grabbed the keys to her car and the three girls headed to the garage where Sarah’s car was parked. Though it was a beat up old Camry, Sarah was proud of her car since she had saved up the money all by herself to buy it. This was the first time Emily had ever driven in Sarah’s car as she had just saved up the money about a month ago to buy it. Emily was a little bit surprised to find when she got in the car that it smelled fairly strongly of cigarette smoke, strong enough in fact for her to make a little face which Sarah saw.
“Oh ya, umm sorry about the smell,” she said awkwardly rolling down the windows as she backed the car out of the garage, “the guy who owned it before me smoked, so when my mom is in here with me sometimes she’ll smoke since it already smells.”

The girls drove for about 10 minutes until they arrived at the plaza where Blockbuster.

“You guys head into Blockbuster and pick out the movies,” Sarah said as they all got out of the car, “I’m going to go next door to CVS and get what I need.

So the girls parted ways briefly until they met back at the car and headed home with three movies and everything Sarah needed. Susie and Emily broke free from their recent tradition of getting scary movies and in honor of the Christmas season, got Elf, Rudolf, and Home Alone.

When they got back to the house the girls decided they would shower, get in their pajamas, grab sleeping bags and then watch a movie downstairs. They decided Emily would shower first so she headed up the stairs to Sarah’s room. As she entered the room she closed the door behind her and walked over to her suitcase and opened it up. Sitting right on top staring back at her was the large 24 count bag of Goodnites she had purchased earlier that day. She looked at the smiling girl on the cover for a moment, who always made her laugh, as if anyone was that happy to be wearing a pull-up to bed. She pulled open the package along the perforation and pulled out a Goodnite. She then grabbed out a pair of pajama pants and shirt, slide the Goodnite inside the pants and then headed to the bathroom. After showering quickly Emily got out, dried herself quickly and then grabbed the Goodnite pulling it up one leg and then the other. She had to admit, a Goodnite never felt better then right after a warm shower, not that it ever felt good, but still. She then slide on her pants and shirt and headed to Susie’s room to tell whoever was next that she was done in the bathroom.

“I knew it!” Susie shouted as Emily walked in the room.

“Knew what?” Emily asked.

“Oh…nothing” Susie said, “don’t worry about it.”

“No tell me!” Emily said a little annoyed.

“Okay don’t be mad, but Susie asked me if I thought you still wet the bed” Sarah started. “I said I didn’t think you still did, since you just turned 16 you’re older now and I thought it might have stopped. But Susie said she thought you probably did since we were at your house a month and a half ago and you were still wearing your night time pants things then. So we bet a dollar on who would be right, and when you walked in we both heard the soft crinkle of your diaper, so now I owe Susie a dollar.”

Emily thought she was going to die. First off she hated the fact her cousins were even discussing her bedwetting, second she was mortified her cousins had heard the crinkling of her Goodnite as she walked, despite the fact Emily heard it she thought that was just because she knew it was there, and third Emily was mortified that Sarah said “we heard the soft crinkle of your DIAPER!”

Susie saw the look on Emily’s face and quickly tried to reassure her cousin, “Don’t worry Emily! You know we don’t care! We love you! I’m sorry I know we probably shouldn’t have bet on this but you know us, we do little bets like this all the time! I’m sorry.”

After a moment Emily said, “Is my Goodnite really that loud that you both can hear it so easily?”

“No not at all!” Sarah said. “We both were just listening really carefully for it since we had made the bet, if I am not thinking about it, even if I am walking next to you I can’t hear it.”

That actually made Emily feel better, but still, this night was pretty much ruined for her. Despite everything she was doing to try and make herself seem older, the one thing her cousins talked about while she was showering was her bedwetting and her “diapers”. The other two girls showered quickly and then they all headed downstairs to watch Elf. As they walked down the stairs, Emily was extremely conscientious of each step she was taking trying to ensure her Goodnite was as silent as humanly possible.

As the movie started, Emily slowly felt her eyelids get heavy and soon she drifted away into a deep sleep as she was exhausted from a full day of travel. As Emily feel asleep she kept telling herself, tomorrow, no matter what, you will show them you’re as old and mature as them, not their baby cou

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Author: leakykate35
Timestamp: Oct 5, 2014 at 9:42 AM
Content: I apologize that it has been several months since my last update, I am very sporadic of when I am on this site, and had taken a break for the past couple of months. I actually wrote this chapter a few months ago and then just never finalized it and posted it. Hopefully people like it and still care about this story. I took Emily's desire to prove to her cousins she is an adult a lot farther this time, so please let me know what you think of what she does. Hopefully you all like this new chapter and hopefully I will have another one very shortly.

Chapter 4

The loud rumbling of Emily’s stomach woke her up from a very enjoyable dream she was having about Josh. She laid there for a moment, hoping she’d fall back asleep into her previous dream, but the ache of her empty stomach continued to grow and she realized that her attempt to fall back asleep was futile. As Emily looked up she saw that Sarah and Susie were still asleep, so she quietly slipped out of her sleeping back and waddled out of the room and into the kitchen, not making a sound except for the crinkle of her Goodnite. As she entered the kitchen she saw her mom and aunt out on the front porch smoking a cigarette, and decided to go say good morning to them before getting her cereal.

“Good morning” her mom and aunt both greeted her as she walked out the door and onto the porch.

“Good morning” she replied as she went and took a seat next to her mom. Emily was surprised to feel how full her Goodnite was as it squished under her as she sat down. Emily was truly amazed with the amount she wet every night, she never leaked. The Goodnites seem to fit her smaller body so perfectly, no pee could ever sneak out.

“How’d you sleep?” Her mom asked after taking a long drag from her cigarette and exhaling the smoke into the air.

“Pretty good” she replied. “Your floor is surprising comfortable Aunt Karen!” She added laughing.

The way the morning breeze was blowing, all the smoke from both her aunt’s and mom’s cigarette was coming straight into her face, so as she laughed she took in a lung full of smoke. Surprisingly though, the smoke didn’t bother her as much as usual. After spending a few more minutes talking to her aunt and mom, Emily decided it was time to feed her empty stomach and waddled back inside. After pouring herself a bowl a Captain Crunch she sat down at the table and began to eat. A few minutes later, Sarah came yawning into the kitchen and poured herself a bowl of cereal and began eating with Emily. As they ate Emily shared her wonderful dream about Josh to Sarah.

“I’m telling you Emily, he totally likes you. Trust me, I know. You’re going to go home in a week and he’s going to tell you how much he missed you and how he truly feels about you” Sarah said excitedly to Emily.

“I promise you he’s not” Emily said as she got up and walked over to the sink to clean out her bowl.

“Well not if he hears how loud your diaper is” Sarah said, “jeeze I can’t believe you’re still in that, it’s gotta be soaked by how loud it is. Isn’t that so gross?” She said.

Emily stopped dead in her tracks and felt as if she was going to cry. She knew Sarah got super moody and said things she didn’t really mean when she was on her period, plus they didn’t get much sleep last night, but still that was without a doubt the meanest thing her cousin had ever said to her.

Seeing the look on her cousin’s face, Sarah immediately realized what she had said and tried to apologize. “I’m sorry cuz, you know I don’t mean that. I was making a joke, it just wasn’t funny.”

“It’s fine” Emily said, walking out of the room so her cousin wouldn’t see her start crying. She was already a diaper baby, she didn’t need to be a crying diaper baby. As she left the kitchen, she went upstairs, grabbed her clothes and a towel and headed to the bathroom to change and shower. She usually just threw away her Goodnite in her cousin’s bathroom trash, but after what Sarah had just said, she didn’t want her cousin to come into the bathroom later and see the soaking Goodnite, so she decided to take it out the outside trashcans where no one would see it. After taking a shower and putting on her clothes, she walked out the backdoor and around the side of the house to the trashcan to throw away her pullup. As she watched closer to the trashcans she began to smell an increased scent of smoke which she felt was odd since had seen her mom and aunt in the kitchen. As she turned the corner of the house she was shocked to see her cousins standing by the trashcans smoking!

“Oh Emily” Sarah said shyly looking down at the cigarette in her hand as she saw her cousin turn the corner.

“Don’t worry, I won’t tell your mom” Emily quickly said, too surprised at her cousins smoking to think of anything else to say.

“Our mom already knows we smoke, we smoke with her all time” Susie said, embarrassed like Sarah.

“Then why are you guys hiding out by the trashcans to smoke?” Emily asked confused.

“Well, umm, we didn’t want you to see Emily,” Sarah said awkwardly “we just, you know, you’re our little cousin, we don’t want to let you down.”

“I’m not a baby! I’m sixteen. You don’t have to hide things from me!” Emily said angrily, though seeing the irony that she was claiming not to be a baby, while holding a bag with her wet Goodnite in it. “Did it ever even cross your mind that maybe I’ve smoked too? That I could be old enough to have decided to try smoking as well? Or did you just think I’m too little to even know what a cigarette is?” Of course Emily had never smoked before, though in an attempt to take a stand and prove she was just as old and mature as them, she was willing to say anything.

“Well, have you smoked?” Susie asked.

“No, but that doesn’t mean I haven’t thought about it. I’ve seen your mom and my mom smoking and always wondered what it would be like, they seem so happy every time.” Emily said. This was actually true. Though Emily found smoking gross, she had always seen the joy her mom and aunt had smoking and wondered what it would be like.

“Do you want to try?” Sarah said extending her cigarette toward Emily.

After pausing for a moment, Emily looked down, grabbed the cigarette and confidently said “yes.” As she grabbed the cigarette, both Sarah and Susie looked surprisingly at her, though there was also a sense of acceptance in their looks. Though Emily was equally as surprised in her willingness to try smoking, her outside was confident. Emily was proving to her cousins she was an adult. This obsession of Emily to prove herself as an adult had always been an innocent one, but in this moment it all changed. For the first time, it became unhealthy, where Emily was willing to disregard what she believed in and how she felt about smoking, to prove to her cousins, people that loved her, that she was something different. The current image of Emily perfectly represented the inner struggle she faced over the past couple of years. In one hand, she held a bag with a soaking Goodnite inside, a symbol of how she felt others viewed her, and in the other she held a cigarette, a symbol of what she is willing to do to prove to others and herself that she isn’t a baby.

Emily stared down at the cigarette for a moment, and then slowly brought it toward her mouth, her hand shaking slightly. She brought it to her lips, and took a tiny breath in, pulling some smoke down into her lungs which she immediately coughed up. Emily grimaced at the initial taste while her cousins laughed at her coughing.

Emily started to hand the cigarette back to Sarah, but she didn’t take it, instead she said “try again, it gets easier I promise” and grabbed the pack of cigarettes sitting on top of the trashcan next to her, and lit a new one for herself.

Emily to another equally small drag, and coughed forceful again. After a couple more manageable drags with little or no coughing, Emily began to feel light headed.

“Woah, I’m feeling really weird right now” Emily said.

“Ya, that happens in the beginning” Sarah said. “Here I’ll put it out for you” she continued as she reached out and grabbed the cigarette from Emily and put both Emily’s and her own out.

They stood there for a moment, as Emily began to feel like her normal sense. Noticing how easily her two cousins smoked, Emily began curious, “how much do you guys smoke?” she asked them.

“Not much” Sarah said, “We probably smoke between 1-3 a day.”

“Are you addicted?” Emily asked.

“Ummm, I guess” Susie said, “I mean not really. Like I wanted to smoke this morning, but I didn’t need to if that makes sense. I’m happier if I do, but won’t die if I don’t.”

“Oh okay,” Emily said “please don’t tell my mom though, I don’t want this to be a think, okay?”

“Of course” Sarah and Susie both said.

The girls all began to head back inside, but then Emily remembered why she came out in the first place and turned around and threw away her Goodnite. As they walked inside, Emily tried to stay as far away from her mom as possible, trying to prevent her mom from smelling her smoke. Sarah noticing what Emily was doing leaned in and whispered, “don’t worry, she has been smoking this morning so she won’t be able to smell it on you, she’ll just think it’s her.”

The girls headed upstairs to get ready for the day. Emily self-conscious of her smell decided to shower again and then brush her teeth multiple times. Soon she was satisfied she was clean and headed downstairs to see what her family had planned for Christmas Eve.

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Author: leakykate35
Timestamp: Oct 6, 2014 at 10:17 AM
Content: Chapter 5

“So your mom and I have a bit more shopping to do before tomorrow” Emily’s aunt said to her as she came down the stairs, “I think Sarah and Susie were talking about maybe seeing movie with you and by the time the movie is over, we should just about be finished with our shopping and then we can meet back here and then go to Christmas Eve service.” Both Emily and her mom as well as her aunt and cousins went to church twice a year, on Christmas Eve and Easter.

“What movie were you thinking about seeing?” Emily asked her cousins.

“Have you seen Anchorman 2?” Susie asked.

“Oh no I haven’t” Emily said. “I really liked the first one though so I definitely want to see it.”

“Perfect, there is a movie in forty-five minutes so we should probably get going” Susie said.

So the three of them headed to garage and go in the car and Sarah began driving to the movie. After seeing her cousins smoking this morning, Emily was again suspicious about the cause of her cousin’s car smelling like smoke.

“So when you said earlier that the person who own the car before you smoked so you let your mom smoke in the car, was that a lie? Does it smell like smoke because you two smoke in here?” Emily asked.

“Well, the person who owned the car before us did smoke, but ya, the reason it smells so strong in here is because pretty much every time we drive somewhere we usually smoke,” Sarah said. “Like I don’t always think about smoking, but when I get in the car and it smells like smoke, it makes me think about smoking, so I just have one, and whenever I have one Susie joins me.”

“Why did you start?” Emily asked trying to put the pieces together of her cousins smoking.

“You know how my mom always has a bunch of open packs of cigarettes all over the house, so one day about six months ago, when she was out we were curious, and so we tried one. We were both exactly like you this morning, we coughed up a storm and thought it was horrible.” Sarah started to explain. “About a week later we had some friends over and we were playing truth or dare, and Susie dared me to smoke a cigarette, and then I dared her and we all ended up smoking one, and this time it wasn’t as bad, but still I never planned on smoking again. However, about a week later, a new guy started working at the restaurant I work at and I thought he was so cute. He was a couple years older, and I was having a hard time getting him to notice me, until I saw him going out and taking a smoking break. So I decided to take a pack of my mom’s cigarettes to work on my next shift and when he went out for a smoke, I would go out with him. Before my next shift though, I smoked like 5 more cigarettes because I didn’t want to look like an idiot coughing in front of him. Well, after joining him on smoking breaks for about a week, I realized he was a total asshole, but by then, I was actually really enjoying smoking. Customers at the restaurant are always mad about something or need something else, so the five minutes I stepped outside to smoke quickly turned into the greatest part of my shift. In the beginning I went a little crazy and it got to the point that I was smoking almost a pack a day.”

“And of course Sarah tells me everything, so when she first started going out on smoking breaks with the guy from work, she would come home and tell me all about it and eventually she started just telling me about how much she liked smoking,” Susie said. “So I started smoking with her occasionally when she would have one at home and soon started to enjoy it and like her went a little crazy and was smoking a lot. At this point since we were both smoking so much, of course our mom noticed, though she didn’t care. Just one night when she went out, she asked if we wanted to join her for a cigarette. When we both looked surprised at her she asked us if we really didn’t think she’d notice. She just asked us to be careful, because she didn’t want us to be so addicted, twenty years down the road it would be impossible for us to quit like it’s impossible for her. So at that point we cut down, and now we only have a couple on most days, but occasionally we will still have some random days when we go crazy and smoke a lot.”

“How do you get all these cigarettes? Like when you guys were smoking so much, you didn’t think your mom would notice all the missing packs?” Emily asked.

“Well I’m 18, so I can buy them,” Sarah said. “But mostly now that mom knows, she pretty much buys an extra pack for us whenever she buys one for her.”

Emily sat there for a minute quietly trying to process everything. She didn’t know how she felt about her cousins smoking. Heck she didn’t even know what she thought about smoking in general anymore. She of course always knew her aunt smoked, and knew her mom smoked when she was with her sister when they were together, but never thought of the possibility of her cousins smoking, or herself ever trying a cigarette. She knew the enjoyment her mom got from smoking, but hated the possibility of being dependent like her aunt is, she would hate to see her cousins end up like that. Though her cousins seemed so old this morning when they were standing outside enjoying a morning smoke.

As Emily’s mind continued to try and ponder everything she had learned this morning about her cousins, they arrived at the movie theater and the three of them go out of the car and headed into the theater. Emily had been very excited to see Anchorman 2 after having really enjoyed the first one, though it turned out to be a little bit of a disappointment of her. Though it had funny part, overall she thought it was a little out there and slow at times.

When the girls got home they quickly changed into their church clothes and then left with their moms for the even mass. All five of them thought the service was a bit long and were happy when it finally ended so they could go get some dinner. After a nice dinner at home, the three girls helped cleanup and the girls headed into the living room to watch Rudolf. About halfway through the movie, the girls shifted from sitting on the couch to laying in there sleeping bags and Emily felt the weight of her eyes gaining with each passing minute. Afraid she could fall asleep at any moment, Emily knew she had to go put on a Goodnite.

As she stood up and headed upstairs to change, Sarah wondering why she’d be randomly going upstairs during the movie asked, “where are you going?’

“Uh just going to use the bathroom” Emily replied hoping her cousin would catch on and not ask why she wasn’t using the bathroom downstairs 15 feet away from them.

Unfortunately, Sarah was not thinking about Emily’s bedwetting and confusedly said, “you know there is one right there?”

Emily blushed and paused, not wanting to have to explicating state she was going to put on her Goodnite in case she fell asleep so she didn’t pee all over her cousins sleeping bag. Luckily for her after a few seconds of looking awkwardly at her cousin, Sarah caught on, and awkwardly said “oh, right, ya I get it, sorry.”

Life with her cousins seemed to be one awkward experience about her wetting after another. It was completely unintentional by her cousins, yet they seemed to always find a way to either bring it up, or ruin her attempts to be sly. Emily hurriedly grabbed a Goodnite from her suitcase, went to the bathroom and put it on and headed back downstairs. Emily hated stairs when she was in a Goodnite as the crinkling seemed to be impossible to control. Emily had almost mastered the correct way to walk in a Goodnite on flat group to minimize the noise, but on stairs she had no luck. As she came back in and laid down, it was only a matter of minutes before she fell asleep, making her all the more grateful she decided to go get changed.

“Emily get up! Emily get up!” Sarah said louder and louder while shaking Emily.

Slowly Emily drifted out of her sleep and started to wake up, “is it time for presents?” She groggily mumbled.

“No it’s the middle of the night still” Sarah said angrily “you forgot to put on your stupid diaper thing and peed everywhere! It got all over the carpet and spread to where I was sleeping and I woke up covered in your pee!”

At the sound of this Emily shot up, immediately wide awake, burning with embarrassment. She quickly thought back to last night trying to think of how she forgot to put on a Goodnite, but then remembered going upstairs and the conversation she had with Sarah. “Wait, what?” She asked confused. “I put it on last night, remember I went upstairs and changed and you asked where I was going.”

“What are you talking about?” Sarah said looking confused at her cousin. “We never talked last night, I fell asleep as soon as the movie started. I have no idea what you are talking about. Look around, look at the giant spot on the carpet, look at your clothes, look at my clothes, you forgot to put on your diaper!”

“It’s a goodnite!” Emily said angrily at her cousin tired of her calling it a diaper. “And I put it on! See!” Emily said as she pulled her pants down, but unfortunately, the only thing Emily revealed when she pulled down her pants was dripping underwear sticking to her body. Emily looked down horrified and then looked around the room seeing the giant mess she created. Emily didn’t know how it was possible, she knew she had put on her Goodnite, how had this happened. Even more surprisingly Emily couldn’t believe the mess she made, almost her entire body was covered in pee as well as a her sleeping bag was completely soaked through leaving a giant circle in the carpet at least four feet wide going all the way to where Sarah was sleeping and leaving a giant wet spot all over the back of her shirt.

With all the noise, Susie woke up and looked around to see what all the noise was. Immediately she noticed her soaking wet cousin and sister and the giant wet spot on the ground. “Oh my God Emily. What did you do?”

“I umm, I don’t know” Emily said still confused as to how this happened. “I guess I forgot to put on my Goodnite.”

“How could you forget Emily? We wear one every night!” Susie said with a tone of disbelief and disappointment.

“We?” Emily asked.

“Ya we” Sarah said, and both her and Susie pulled down their pants revealing a full Goodnite on each of them. “We remember to put on our Goodnites and unlike you we didn’t get pee anywhere.”

Emily stood there with her mouth wide open, so confused on what was going on. She couldn’t say a word, she just kept looking around the room, so confused as to what was going on. Suddenly she felt a stream heading down her leg and heard Sarah scream, “Emily STOP!!! You’re peeing again all over this room! Stop! Go to the bathroom! What are you doing! You’re being everywhere! STOP! STOP! STOP! STOP! STOP!”

“STOP!” Emily screamed as she shot up in her sleeping bag. Suddenly it was dark in the room again, Emily looked around for a moment and then felt a huge sense of relief, it had all been a dream, a terrible dream.

“Stop what? What’s wrong Emily?” Susie worriedly asked after being awoken by her cousin screaming.

“Sorry Susie” Emily whispered, “It was only a bad dream.”

“Okay, sleep well” Susie said, rolling over and going back to bed.

As Emily laid back down she was comforted by the feeling a full Goodnite forcing a little extra space between her legs. Emily looked up the clock and noticed it was only 1:30. She laid there for a moment trying to fall back asleep, but knew it wouldn’t happen. For one, Emily knew she was going to sleep for another six hours and would definitely wet again and knew her Goodnite couldn’t hold another wetting, but more importantly Emily had a terrible time falling back sleep to a full Goodnite. It seemed like every position she got into was disturbed by the extra weight and space it caused between her legs. Emily, still paranoid by her dream, slowly reached down between her legs and gave her Goodnite a squeeze just to reassure herself she was actually wearing. However, what Emily felt made her heart drop in her chest. Though she definitely felt an extremely full Goodnite, when she gave a squeeze she could feel still warm pee leak out her Goodnite and became increasing aware of a puddle she was laying in. She must have just been soaking herself during that bad dream and herself conscious was telling her body she was soaking so much she was leaking everywhere.

Emily slowly crawled out of her sleeping bag, and to her despair with each little movement she made, more and more fresh, warm pee was squeeze out her Goodnite and into the sleeping bag. Emily tried to move as slow as possible to avoid waking either of her cousins back up and alerting them of the mess she had made. They were already going to be grossed out that she peed all over one of their sleeping bags, they didn’t have to find out when they were tired and cranky. Emily eventually slipped out of the sleeping bag, picking it up, and slowly waddling upstairs. When she got to Sarah’s room she closed the door, turned on the light and inspected the damage. She was completely soaked and the inside of the sleeping bag was also almost completely soaked. Luckily the sleeping bag was waterproof so the carpet downstairs was fine. Looking at both herself and the sleeping bag Emily began to cry. Still crying she grabbed a fresh pair of pants, and a new Goodnite out her bag. Emily slowing removed her sticky wet pants and then slid down her soaking Goodnite which after a little help to get started, easily slid down her legs on its own due to its heavy weight. Emily then walked over to the bathroom that was attached to Sarah’s room and cleaned herself up a little bit with some wet toilet paper. After cleaning herself up she slid on her new Goodnite and looked at herself in the mirror. There she stood, a 16 year old girl crying in nothing but a t-shirt and Goodnite, and knew she was a baby.

Suddenly she heard a knock on the door, and saw Sarah come walking in. “Is everything okay Emily?”

Emily just continued to cry for a minute and Sarah quickly figured out what had happened as she saw Emily’s soaking clothes, Goodnite, and sleeping bag at her feet. She walked over to Emily and gave her a nice long hug and then said with a comforting smile, “everything is okay. I will wash the sleeping bag and your clothes in the morning and for now, you are all dry, so just put on some pants we can go get some sleep.”

Emily just looked at her cousin and gave her another big hug and said “I love you.” This was by far the worst wetting experience she had ever had with her cousins, and yet Sarah treated her with so much, love, kindness, and respect, Emily felt okay about it. Immediately she no longer felt like crying baby, but simply felt like herself.

Sarah handed Emily the pants she had pulled out from her bag, and Emily quickly put them on. Then Sarah walked over to her closet and grabbed out some blankets for Emily to use and they headed back downstairs and went to bed. It was now 2:00 and after a few minutes of lying there, Emily easily drifted back to sleep and this time didn’t dream of accidents, but of the presents she was going to open in just a few hours.